With being in a long distance relationship, you can never be sure if your partner is faithful to you, and honestly, that is one of my biggest concerns. How do i know? How do i bring up my concerns without seeming clingy or controlling? because i’m not.
I was made to be loyal, i’m like a dog, once i’ve found my ‘person’, i do EVERYTHING in my power to keep him, i was not made for cheating, i don’t have that in me, thank god. But how do i know he’s faithful? i don’t.. there is so many ways to cheat these days. It doesn’t necessarily have to be sex.. i consider flirting to be as much cheating as sex.
I’m worried, because if he decides this isn’t worth it, it will be so easy for him to just drop it, stop fighting for it and just let it go. With us being so far away from each other, i can’t just call him every time i want because of the time difference, and i can’t just show up at his door, no.. it takes planning, and money and time. I need him to tell me everything is going to be alright. But he’s a guy, and like most guys, he needs me to spell shit out for him, and i rarely do, because i’m afraid i’ll just push him away with all my worries. I need SOMEONE to tell me it’s going to be okay, that we will push through this. So many thoughts..
I keep telling myself it’s worth it, and that it won’t be like this for forever, i know it’s not, i know we’ll be together soon and everything WILL be okay, but right now, i’m fighting hard to stay over the surface.